As I have
mentioned the three things I wanted ‘when I grew up’ were to be a mom and wife.
Attend Texas A&M because there IS nothing better than being an Aggie. Then
spend my life and time teaching children.
Well you
know the saying about best laid plans….
I am a wife
that happened at an early age and is the single greatest thing in my life. My
husband is the only reason I wake up some days.
I am not a
mom and don’t know that I will ever be, which breaks my heart. I just think of
a child and all the responsibility. I never want to bring a human life into existence
that I cannot give 100% to emotionally and finical. There may come a time that
is possible for now it seems impossible.
Texas A&M. This one cuts the deepest. Even now I try to
wrap my brain around the fact that I will never spend my Saturdays in the
student section humping it. This topic deserves its own post one day.
Teaching,
well that goes along with no college. I have come to realize that I cannot
blame anyone for this. I have to take responsibility. I barely passed math from
4th grade on and spent my time trying to seem perfect instead of
working on what was important. I was naive and believed I would just get to go
to A&M that would just happen after graduation, my dad and I always talked
about it. Yeah well college takes money and good grades neither of which I had.
Tried the Jr College thing with hopes to transfer but with all the time I have
to devote to studying just to keep up with the other students and work full
time it is not possible for me. So I move forward.
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