Been awhile since I posted, I'll get better at this, a lot has changed I am no longer working I am going to school. The most exciting part there is a glimmer of hope I may get to transfer to Texas A&M Commerce and be part of the Aggie family. Right now community college and trying to pay as I go. I have no idea where the $ for A&M would come from but I am TRYING to let to and let God.
Accepting the good, that's what I am working on currently. I have a hard time trusting that school won't be taken away again. I worry about the dumbest things, like moving in September (5 months away), or if I get my Aggie ring one day what am I going to do? I have my wedding band and a beautiful right hand ring Brian gave me toward the beginning of our relationship. Seriously why do these things bother me daily? It will be at least another 2 years before the ring is even a possibility and money may stop it before it even ever happens. So why do I feel pain in my chest about it? Logic tells me it's dumb but I can't seem to get that trough my head.
